The Post I’ve been avoiding



I’ve been putting off writing this blog post. On one hand, we’ve made some progress on our earthship. On the other hand, we’ve had a very rough couple of months. With the many losses we’ve experienced, I lost another friend from high school since my last post. Cancer stinks and it doesn’t discriminate.

We fought hard against the proposed solar site, I wrote more letters, we had the whole neighborhood sign a letter to the owners of the land. We had our attorney send a letter. We worked very hard, all to lose in the end.

We sat in the commissioners hearing room barely tolerating the snake oil salesman’s pitch again. I watched him closely and he reminded me of a rat; pointy nose, shifty eyes, pale skinned as he spewed out garbage. Two of the three commissioners bought it hook, line, and sinker. We had previously talked to one of those two and he all but confirmed he was on board with us.

Then, at two minutes to noon, he turned on us. I’m guessing his stomach overrode his brain and he did a complete 180. We were devastated. This industrial complex will be built 20 feet from our property.

On the drive home it began to sink in, we may never be able to live in our earthship. The electro magnetic waves alone will probably keep me from being able to stay here. I’m very sensitive to atmospheric changes, or any kind of pressure, or heat. I have severe headaches and we would be safer leaving here, not taking the chance with our health.

The heat from the panels alone in the summer would be enough to drive us away. We were brokenhearted, at a loss for what to do. How could this happen? We never bothered them, we didn’t even complain when they had late night parties in their field with a DJ and flashing lights. We moved out here to be off the grid and be left alone.

Obviously, we didn’t move far enough. Now what? We prayed for God to help us. To reveal their lies and that they were only after revenge for us having tires stacked around and for having the nerve to take more that 3 months to build our home. Where was God? Why didn’t he intervene like I wanted?

It took me a long time to realize I had put my faith in people, not God. I trusted that the county commissioners would see thru this whole thing and see that they were treating us unfairly and would come through in the end and do the right thing. That’s where I went wrong.

Some people can no longer be trusted to do the right thing, especially it seems, in government capacities. I put my trust in the wrong place. I needed to trust that God would take care of us, whatever that meant. It may mean we have to move from here and start over. This may not be the place we originally thought it was. I would hate to have to leave now since we’ve made some really good friends that were only neighbors before.

We haven’t gotten together as a group since this all fell through, but I know those people would help me if I need anything at a moment’s notice. We’ve heard that things are happening to put a stop to all of this, but nothing is confirmed. At least the solar company has put off construction till next spring which will give us (And God) more time to regroup and possibly shut this down.

Even if it goes all the way through and we are forced to look at what we can do next, I know that our friends, and especially God, have our backs and now they have my heart.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”

Proverbs 3:5-6

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8 Responses to The Post I’ve been avoiding

  1. Karen says:

    Vickie this is a heartbreaking blog to read. I’m so sorry for your struggles and what these people have put you and Dave through definitely not fair. You’re right you can’t trust people so put your faith in God and he will lead you into the path you should be going. Hugs and love❤

    • vickieknob says:

      Thank you so much Karen. We are trying to focus on not why this is happening to us, but what we can learn from it.

  2. Dwayne Reeder says:

    Only God can see the thread woven into the tapestry. It’s hard to know God‘s plans, but I know he hears you. Keep praying and asking God for His guidance!

  3. Mark Nitsua says:

    My dear cousin. I know very little detail about your challenge, however, I do know losing everything material at the hands of bureaucrats and their minions despite the heartfelt belief that the righteous end should have been in our favor. Life flows on… sometimes as with a physical metaphor life like water flows around an obstacle, or over it, and with time, flows through it. Meanwhile, we deal with the consequences of our decisions and choices. We as complex, spiritual creations look for the reasons for negative results, amidst our prayers for His intervention for our well being and happiness. In our Creator’s reality He holds the entire story in His hands and is reading aloud our present, and we see in our own capacity where the story is in this present moment. He knows the beginning to the end by heart. The clues He gives us in scripture can ease the day to day frustrations, betrayals, indignities and hard battles lost. One of my favorite quotes is “Behold I make all things new”. There are many more as you have quoted to me. Be comforted by the fact that God plans of changing it all… Solomon figured it out, Job learned… Noah knew, Jonah never figured it out, Lol! You are right. and our Lord said it best when he spoke of the greatest commandment Law of Love. May you receive what you need for this day. Love you and Dave and praying for His Will in your lives.

    Has anyone in your group gotten a transcript of the council meeting… and under what statute did the council take action? I expect a petition for reconsideration could be filed before a law suit is filed. Based upon the zoning laws and the annotations of cases that define those particular statutes.

    • vickieknob says:

      Thank you for your encouraging words. We are looking to God for the next steps. Right now we are not planning on suing, but if we as a group plan to we will get the appropriate things we need. We are all licking our wounds and letting another group carry on in this next step. As I said in my post, there are a few other things happening than may take care of this situation. We are leaning on the Lord and in constant prayer as to what to do next. It is tough at our ages to start over, but as you know, it can be done. God is ever present and we are actually anticipating his next move.

  4. I will try this and hopefully I won’t get an error again trying to post a comment.

    You are at a particularly rough spot in your lives, that is clear. It is all too easy to get bogged down in negative emotions based on tragic events. But we were all meant to shine with God’s brilliance, even your neighbours, despite what they plan to do with their property. The Divine will make things happen, but you need to stay connected to it and not be brought down by your trials. I found this scripture rather apt:

    Though the fig tree does not bud
    and there are no grapes on the vines,
    though the olive crop fails
    and the fields produce no food,
    though there are no sheep in the pen
    and no cattle in the stalls,
    yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
    I will be joyful in God my Savior.

    • vickieknob says:

      Thank you so much! Those words are so apt and encouraging we are trying to stay connected and actually have come such a long way towards having peace about all of this. Blessings to you.

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