What to do when your shiny dreams tarnish


What to do when your shiny dreams become tarnished


Once again, I find myself at a crossroads. We have come so far and yet not quite far enough. We had big, crazy dreams about living in a camper for a few months while the hubby would rush home every night and work on our earthship.

I would help by picking out finishes, cooking homecooked meals, cheering him on and making sure we were on track with it all.

It would only take a few months, 3 months, well possibly 6 at the most. By now you know our story. Governmental red tape tied us up for most of those first 3 months. Then we had to find a contractor and an engineer to do the septic system. By October we were moving along.

Then the rain and snows came. It was a mild winter, but the ground was frozen, so it made it difficult to move and pound dirt into the tires.

Honestly, we had no clue how much time, or money everything would take. We watched too many YouTube videos about guys building their own earthships for around 35k start to finish. Of course, that was just one room and I’m pretty sure the local authorities had no idea they were building such a structure. If they did, they probably would have been out there to stop progress with their hands out for each and every aspect of the build.

At first, I naïvely thought we might be able to start building and maybe slip under the radar out here. I mean who really would care what we are doing on our own land? We weren’t bothering anyone (so I thought).

Thankfully Dave knew better and made sure we followed all the rules. This is very fortunate since the compliance department issued us a summons last spring. We just renewed the permit again for the umtenth time. We have gotten a final on our septic, but that is all. Sometimes it seems like we go backward faster than forwards.

This winter hit hard. More snow, rain and cold than we have seen for a long time. Even when the sun was shining, all that would do is melt more snow and produce more mud. We still have mud, and more rain every week. Our area is desperate for moisture, so I try to be patient and welcome it.

All it has done for us is delay any kind of progress on the earthship. Dave was in the process of building the front foundation of the house last fall, and with the weather, he hasn’t been able to even finish that.

Our road was so bad, there were days at a time I didn’t dare go to town for fear of possibly getting stuck. We parked about 300 yards from the house and hiked in. I would plan my days accordingly, loading the car with laundry while the ground was still frozen and trying to get back before it was too messy. Hopefully, those days are over. We are actually starting to dry out between storms now.

We have found a little house about 30 minutes from here and are in the process of buying it. It is definitely a fixer, but we can do it as we go. When we get a few of the big things done, we can move in for a while. We decided to split our time between places to make sure this place stays in tact and to give Dave some time to work on the earthship if he can.

It will be hard to trade the calls of the coyotes for the sounds of traffic on the nearby streets, but as we always tell each other, “It’s only for a time.”

So, I take out my tarnished dreams and pull out the polishing cloth once again. We aren’t done, just delayed once again. Life isn’t always about doing things quickly, it’s about the journey. We are on quite a journey that’s for sure.


“May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed.”

Psalm 20:4

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6 Responses to What to do when your shiny dreams tarnish

  1. Dwayne says:

    You each have such strength that I know that you will succeed, and succeed you will.

  2. mommykins1 says:

    Vickie, I have only recently discovered your books. I’m now on the 3rd Xander James mysteries. I grew up in Palisade in the 60’s. 15 years ago I returned to the area, Grand Junction. My husband doesn’t get that these books thrill me because of the references to this area that I know so well.
    I was especially surprised to see that in your second book, Code 207, the address that Winnie Smith lives at, 398 W. 1st Street (Palisade I assume), is the house I grew up in! I couldn’t believe it. I’m going to share these books with my 4 brothers. They’ll get a kick out of them too.
    Thanks for the good reads

    • vickieknob says:

      I grew up in that house too! I’m so happy to hear you are enjoying my books. I’m getting ready to publish the 4th in the series soon. If you happen to have the time and inclination, I would love to have you leave a review on either Amazon or Goodreads. Reviews help to put my books up further on the recommend lists, etc. So thankful you are here and left a comment.

  3. Maxine Fletcher says:

    God bless you on this road less traveled. You have proven to be true pioneers with a lot of faith and pure stamina. Praying for you and hoping to see a completed home of your dreams in the not too far future.

    • vickieknob says:

      Thank you so much Maxine. It is certainly hard to be patient in the world of instant gratification. <3

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